I was totally unprepared for what I was about to face. How could I leave my one true Любовь alone so fragile and unprotected, but surly she could stay out of harms way without the Вампиры in town. I knew that it would be a while before she actually hinted that I was leaving and I knew that she would cling with every thread of hope. But this was for the best. I think.
I pulled into Charlies spot not wanting to look at the empty house so I spent the few минуты it took for Bella's truck to come billowing around the corner, with my love.
Holding her warm hand, I was so attuned to her that I could even hear her сердце thump around unevenly at my very touch. I imagined the blood rush to her soft cheek and I even tasted her scent a deep freesia on my tongue.
I stepped out to meet her and saw her wary expression watching me. So I took her book bag and lightly threw it in the small cab.
She looked at me with the strangest expression on her face now like she knew what was to come but also a confused look. I saw Вопросы in her eyes but ignored them.
"Come for a walk with me."
My voice was hard as stone with no emotion whatsoever, but what I was about to do was not exactly cause for celebration. I tried to hide my emotions as best as possible so as not to worry her more. But it was difficult and I hoped she didn't see what slipped through.
I pulled her along through the yard and onto the trail when we stopped the house was still in view.
I stared at her trying to memorize her face. It took all my self control not to stretch my hand out and stroke her warm cheek but this was going to be hard enough.
"Okay lets talk," she said.
I took a deep, long breath to prepare myself for what was to come.
"Bella, we're leaving."
She appeared as if she were preparing for a war, a long war. But in the end I would win. But instead of getting a Золото medal I get my destiny taken away from me.
"Why now? Another year-
"Bella, it's time, how much longer could we stay in Forks, after all? Carlisle can barely pass for thirty-three now. We'd have to start over soon regardless."
She stared at me her expression confused, then it became understanding.
"When Ты say we-" she whispered.
"I mean my family and myself."
I would never forgive myself for this, not even if I lived for a million years, I would never forget leaving my Bella and I realized she might not either.
"Okay I'll come with you."
"You can't Bella. Where we're going...It's not the right place for you.
"Where Ты are is the right place for me."
"I'm no good for you, Bella."
"Don't be ridiculous, you're the very best part of my life."
"My world is not for you."
I saw Jasper snarling at Bella in my head and mentally cringed at the thought. Bella so fragile, so warm, so human. I could picture it now one lone deer standing in a clearing with seven hungry, angry lions circling it closing in for the kill.
I also remembered the день she almost got squished in between a truck and van. I whole point of this was to keep her безопасно, сейф but what if I had never come into her life. What if it was her deathbed right then and there. What if she needed me just as much as I needed her.
"What happened with Jasper- that was nothing, Edward, Noting!"
Her cry of pain brought me out of my reverie.
"You're right," I agreed.
"It was exactly what was to be expected."
"You promised, In Phoenix, Ты promised that Ты would stay-"
"As long as that was best for you," I corrected.
"No! This is about my soul isn't it?"
Of course this was about her soul. I remembered seeing my Bella in Alice's head cold, hard as stone standing there with hard red eyes. Taking away a future a family it wasn't right. If Ты truly loved someone wouldn't Ты want them to be happy, have everything including a soul?
"Carlisle told me about that, and I don't care, Edward. I don't care! Ты can have my soul. I don't want it without you- it's yours already!"
I looked down at the cold forest floor and tried to make my face look hard and cold to.
I finitely looked up and сказал(-а) the words I had been dreading. For I knew that when I сказал(-а) them she would never forgive me even if one день I did come back and pleaded her forgiveness. Never.
"Bella, I don't want Ты to come with me."
I stared at her face, knowing that what I saw there would cause me the most pain.
She paused an I knew I had broken her.
"You...don't...want me?"
I wanted to shout out at her, it's a lie Bella, honey a total lie never could I live without Ты but instead I answered.
"No!"
She stared into my eyes trying to look for any glitch in my expression, but there was none to look for, none that she could see anyway.
"Well, that changes things."
I looked away into the trees.
"I'll always Любовь you... in a way. But what happened the other night made me realize that it's time for a change. Because I'm tired of pretending to be something I'm not, Bella. I am not human and I'm sorry for that."
"Don't," she whispered.
"Don't do this."
I just stared at her.
"You're no good for me Bella."
It would never be true no matter how many times I сказал(-а) it.
She looked as if she were having a hard time picking the right words to speak.
"If... that's what Ты want."
I thought I had successfully mastered lying. But for some reason I couldn't open my mouth to speak so I nodded once.
There was a short pause and she appeared as if she were going to fall over.
"I would like to ask one favor, though, if that's not too much."
I saw the pain and sorrow and the true promise that I knew she would do anything for me and some of my expression slipped through. I composed my face quickly. I didn't want her thinking to much about me. I probably could just go curl up in a corner for the Далее decade.
"Anything," she promised.
"Don't do anything reckless или stupid, do Ты understand what I'm saying?" She nodded.
"I'm thinking of Charlie of course. He needs you, take care of yourself- for him."
But it wasn't all for Charlies sake if Bella died while I wasn't there to protect her I have only one idea of what I would do.
Die to.
I knew it was a idiotic plan but what other choice did I have?
She nodded and whispered.
"I will."
"And I'll make Ты a promise in return. I promise that this will be the last time you'll see me. I won't come back. I won't put Ты through anything like this again. Ты can go on with Ты life without any еще interference from me. It will be as if I'd never existed."
Her сердце thumped faster and I gently smiled down at her.
"Don't worry, you're human- your memory is no еще than a sieve. Time heals all wounds for Ты kind.
"And your memories?"
"Well- I won't forget. But my kind we're easily distracted."
I gently smiled again.
I forced my foot to step back and there was no greater pain then doing so.
"We won't bother Ты again," I said.
She looked confused and then I remembered she hadn't known that Alice left.
"Alice isn't coming back," she whispered.
I shook my head while still watching her face.
"No, they're all gone. I stayed behind to tell Ты goodbye."
"Alice is gone?" she asked in disbelief.
"She wanted to say goodbye, but I convinced her that a clean break would be better for you."
I hoped are efforts amounted to something I wouldn't want her to ever have to think about this again.
"Goodbye, Bella."
"Wait!"
She reached for me and I locked my hands around her warm wrists and pinned them to her sides. I pressed my lips lightly to her forehead and she closed her eyes.
"Take care of yourself."
She never reopened her eyes and I left running.
15 минуты later
I was in Canada before I even began thinking again so I stopped in a field and gazed at the sky. As I lie on the damp grass. All of a sudden a shooting звезда shoots through the sky and when it was gone I closed my eyes and saw Bella behind my lids.
I pulled into Charlies spot not wanting to look at the empty house so I spent the few минуты it took for Bella's truck to come billowing around the corner, with my love.
Holding her warm hand, I was so attuned to her that I could even hear her сердце thump around unevenly at my very touch. I imagined the blood rush to her soft cheek and I even tasted her scent a deep freesia on my tongue.
I stepped out to meet her and saw her wary expression watching me. So I took her book bag and lightly threw it in the small cab.
She looked at me with the strangest expression on her face now like she knew what was to come but also a confused look. I saw Вопросы in her eyes but ignored them.
"Come for a walk with me."
My voice was hard as stone with no emotion whatsoever, but what I was about to do was not exactly cause for celebration. I tried to hide my emotions as best as possible so as not to worry her more. But it was difficult and I hoped she didn't see what slipped through.
I pulled her along through the yard and onto the trail when we stopped the house was still in view.
I stared at her trying to memorize her face. It took all my self control not to stretch my hand out and stroke her warm cheek but this was going to be hard enough.
"Okay lets talk," she said.
I took a deep, long breath to prepare myself for what was to come.
"Bella, we're leaving."
She appeared as if she were preparing for a war, a long war. But in the end I would win. But instead of getting a Золото medal I get my destiny taken away from me.
"Why now? Another year-
"Bella, it's time, how much longer could we stay in Forks, after all? Carlisle can barely pass for thirty-three now. We'd have to start over soon regardless."
She stared at me her expression confused, then it became understanding.
"When Ты say we-" she whispered.
"I mean my family and myself."
I would never forgive myself for this, not even if I lived for a million years, I would never forget leaving my Bella and I realized she might not either.
"Okay I'll come with you."
"You can't Bella. Where we're going...It's not the right place for you.
"Where Ты are is the right place for me."
"I'm no good for you, Bella."
"Don't be ridiculous, you're the very best part of my life."
"My world is not for you."
I saw Jasper snarling at Bella in my head and mentally cringed at the thought. Bella so fragile, so warm, so human. I could picture it now one lone deer standing in a clearing with seven hungry, angry lions circling it closing in for the kill.
I also remembered the день she almost got squished in between a truck and van. I whole point of this was to keep her безопасно, сейф but what if I had never come into her life. What if it was her deathbed right then and there. What if she needed me just as much as I needed her.
"What happened with Jasper- that was nothing, Edward, Noting!"
Her cry of pain brought me out of my reverie.
"You're right," I agreed.
"It was exactly what was to be expected."
"You promised, In Phoenix, Ты promised that Ты would stay-"
"As long as that was best for you," I corrected.
"No! This is about my soul isn't it?"
Of course this was about her soul. I remembered seeing my Bella in Alice's head cold, hard as stone standing there with hard red eyes. Taking away a future a family it wasn't right. If Ты truly loved someone wouldn't Ты want them to be happy, have everything including a soul?
"Carlisle told me about that, and I don't care, Edward. I don't care! Ты can have my soul. I don't want it without you- it's yours already!"
I looked down at the cold forest floor and tried to make my face look hard and cold to.
I finitely looked up and сказал(-а) the words I had been dreading. For I knew that when I сказал(-а) them she would never forgive me even if one день I did come back and pleaded her forgiveness. Never.
"Bella, I don't want Ты to come with me."
I stared at her face, knowing that what I saw there would cause me the most pain.
She paused an I knew I had broken her.
"You...don't...want me?"
I wanted to shout out at her, it's a lie Bella, honey a total lie never could I live without Ты but instead I answered.
"No!"
She stared into my eyes trying to look for any glitch in my expression, but there was none to look for, none that she could see anyway.
"Well, that changes things."
I looked away into the trees.
"I'll always Любовь you... in a way. But what happened the other night made me realize that it's time for a change. Because I'm tired of pretending to be something I'm not, Bella. I am not human and I'm sorry for that."
"Don't," she whispered.
"Don't do this."
I just stared at her.
"You're no good for me Bella."
It would never be true no matter how many times I сказал(-а) it.
She looked as if she were having a hard time picking the right words to speak.
"If... that's what Ты want."
I thought I had successfully mastered lying. But for some reason I couldn't open my mouth to speak so I nodded once.
There was a short pause and she appeared as if she were going to fall over.
"I would like to ask one favor, though, if that's not too much."
I saw the pain and sorrow and the true promise that I knew she would do anything for me and some of my expression slipped through. I composed my face quickly. I didn't want her thinking to much about me. I probably could just go curl up in a corner for the Далее decade.
"Anything," she promised.
"Don't do anything reckless или stupid, do Ты understand what I'm saying?" She nodded.
"I'm thinking of Charlie of course. He needs you, take care of yourself- for him."
But it wasn't all for Charlies sake if Bella died while I wasn't there to protect her I have only one idea of what I would do.
Die to.
I knew it was a idiotic plan but what other choice did I have?
She nodded and whispered.
"I will."
"And I'll make Ты a promise in return. I promise that this will be the last time you'll see me. I won't come back. I won't put Ты through anything like this again. Ты can go on with Ты life without any еще interference from me. It will be as if I'd never existed."
Her сердце thumped faster and I gently smiled down at her.
"Don't worry, you're human- your memory is no еще than a sieve. Time heals all wounds for Ты kind.
"And your memories?"
"Well- I won't forget. But my kind we're easily distracted."
I gently smiled again.
I forced my foot to step back and there was no greater pain then doing so.
"We won't bother Ты again," I said.
She looked confused and then I remembered she hadn't known that Alice left.
"Alice isn't coming back," she whispered.
I shook my head while still watching her face.
"No, they're all gone. I stayed behind to tell Ты goodbye."
"Alice is gone?" she asked in disbelief.
"She wanted to say goodbye, but I convinced her that a clean break would be better for you."
I hoped are efforts amounted to something I wouldn't want her to ever have to think about this again.
"Goodbye, Bella."
"Wait!"
She reached for me and I locked my hands around her warm wrists and pinned them to her sides. I pressed my lips lightly to her forehead and she closed her eyes.
"Take care of yourself."
She never reopened her eyes and I left running.
15 минуты later
I was in Canada before I even began thinking again so I stopped in a field and gazed at the sky. As I lie on the damp grass. All of a sudden a shooting звезда shoots through the sky and when it was gone I closed my eyes and saw Bella behind my lids.
